Day 259

I swear
I can tell you're smiling
from how your breath changes
from deep sighs
to soft exhales on my neck

I swear
I can taste the poetry
on your tongue when you
kiss me because
the words reach my heart

Day 258

and sometimes,
you even make me feel beautiful.
and that's really fucking hard
to do.

Day 257

I want nothing more than
to bottle up the way I felt
when we first met
and keep those butterflies in a jar
so I shall never forget

Day 256

we were perfect together
every time I saw you
I thought
I could stand on your shoulders
and pluck a star from the sky
we were invincible
you and I

a perfect balance
leaning on each other's shoulders
I wanted to stop time
and stay like this forever
but you began leaning too hard
and we both fell to the groundyou and I

Day 255

you were a mistake
not the way you kissed me
or the dates you planned weeks in advance
not the way your eyes lit up when you saw me
or the knee-slapping laughs we shared

it was not a mistake
that I fell in love with you
or that you told me 'forever'

the mistake was that
I listened
and I truly thought you'd stay.

Day 254

I've wiped away all the physical evidence
that you were here
but that's still not enough
because even if your closet is empty
and the other side of the bed is empty

I can still see the dent of your body
where you always slept
and I can still see your fingerprints
on the refrigerator door
and I still wake up wondering
why your arms are not around me

Day 253

I made a home in your arms
carved your collarbone to
perfectly rest my head
slowed your heartbeat
so I could fall asleep to
the sound of soft footsteps
laid your arms tightly around
my waist so I would always
feel safe no matter where my
dreams took me

I made a home in your arms
so I would always have a
place to return, to find solace
at the end of a bad dream
I knew your arms were there
to remind me I was not alone,
to rid me of my worst fears
and protect me from the bad

I made a home in your arms
and I don't know what changed
but you began showing up
in my nightmares and my head
no longer fit in the delicate
curve of your neck and I awoke
to find you had pushed me aside
and you were sound asleep with
your arms at your sides

Day 252

I fear the darkness,
the kind of pitch black
where even shadows
disappear
I fear the night,
the thumping
of my own heart
amidst utter silence
but I fear you,
most of all
and how quickly you
became a stranger when
once you were my closest
friend.

Day 251

I pluck a star from the night sky
and pretend it is your heart

I make a wish and hang it
on my door

so every time I enter
I'll be reminded of you

a heart so bright
and so true 

Day 250

To be truly happy, you must first admit what you deserve
and you deserve the snow atop the highest mountain peaks
and a message in a bottle that traveled the seven seas
and you deserve love in every form, love that tingles your toes
and breathes new life into you, expanding your fragile lungs
and you deserve to be content, to push open your eyes at
the break of dawn and say this is my life and I am happy.

Day 249

I'm not an astrologist
but I see stars when I
look into your eyes

I'm not a magician
but I feel magic when I
brush your hand with mine

I'm not a doctor
but I want to learn what
makes your heart beat

I'm just a girl
but I learned to love
when I met you

Day 248

My eyes were open
but blinded by betrayal
and so I could not see
the deepened lines by
your eyes as you told
lie after lie after lie

blinded by love

the ruin of many

Day 247: six word story

In you, I found a home.

Day 246: Ten Word Story

Why does the sun shine when I beg for darkness?

Day 245

I miss you more than
the moon misses the sun when
it sets for the night

Day 244

If you are ever
looking for an escape, I'll
hide you in my heart.

Day 243

All the sticks and stones
in the world could not hurt me
as much as your words.

Day 242

Everybody has words within them
but the words I need to
describe my love for you
have not yet been invented

Day 241

Now that you're gone I
have nothing left to lose but
the love for myself.

Day 240

you said you were gone
but you keep showing up in
all of my nightmares