About a week ago, I released my poetry collection, and today I hit #1 on Amazon in the Women's Poetry category. I'm so thankful and amazed--it's the best Christmas present I could have received.
If you are interested, you can purchase it on Amazon US or Amazon UK (for other countries just search the name: It Starts Like This).
And my active poetry blog can be found here. Happy Holidays!
Sunday, December 25, 2016
Thursday, November 24, 2016
Journal
Once I sculpted you out of letters
and carved quotes into your skin
you became every word
I wanted someone to tell me
even if you said it with silence
you let me spill tears on your shoulder
even though it left a stain
and you never forgot a single detail
while I poured my heart out every day
yet I abandoned you as I always do
when you ran out of space for me
and I realized as I tucked you
behind rows of books on my shelves
that you never asked for my eyes
to spill tears on your corners
and my mind to drip words on each line
I ruined my creation,
my sculpture born of ink,
until I had no more tears left to cry.
Wednesday, November 2, 2016
Every morning when I open my eyes
I find an empty bed
and I'm always surprised
because all through the night
you never left my head.
I find an empty bed
and I'm always surprised
because all through the night
you never left my head.
I did it.
I wrote 365 poems in (a little longer than) a year.
I am more active on my Tumblr (nothingwithoutwords.tumblr.com) where I grew a bigger audience than I ever thought I would! And soon I'll be releasing a poetry book with my work, so stay tuned!
Thank you for your support this past year,
Leigh
I wrote 365 poems in (a little longer than) a year.
I am more active on my Tumblr (nothingwithoutwords.tumblr.com) where I grew a bigger audience than I ever thought I would! And soon I'll be releasing a poetry book with my work, so stay tuned!
Thank you for your support this past year,
Leigh
Sunday, October 30, 2016
Day 365
ripping petals off of daisies
is my favorite pastime,
a selfish one for tearing
flowers from their homes
roots clinging to the soil
they are not ready to let go
but I need answers
so I break their beauty
for the truth
he loves me
he loves me not
I chant again and again
surrounded by white petals
and stems
when will I apologize to the earth
for my greedy destruction
because of the truth I already know
(he loves me not).
is my favorite pastime,
a selfish one for tearing
flowers from their homes
roots clinging to the soil
they are not ready to let go
but I need answers
so I break their beauty
for the truth
he loves me
he loves me not
I chant again and again
surrounded by white petals
and stems
when will I apologize to the earth
for my greedy destruction
because of the truth I already know
(he loves me not).
Saturday, October 29, 2016
Day 364
I always stare at my feet when I walk
I didn't know what I was looking for
until I almost stepped on a piece of glass
lodged into the carpet
I saw it but that does not mean I stopped
I like patterns
the books on my shelf are ordered by size
and the clothes in my closet by color
I walk one foot in front of the other
so I can be sure I will go where I want to go
I saw a piece of glass lodged into the carpet
but that does not mean I stopped
instead I closed my eyes
and took one more step forward
because I've learned one thing in my way
shouldn't stop me from where I'm going
I didn't know what I was looking for
until I almost stepped on a piece of glass
lodged into the carpet
I saw it but that does not mean I stopped
I like patterns
the books on my shelf are ordered by size
and the clothes in my closet by color
I walk one foot in front of the other
so I can be sure I will go where I want to go
I saw a piece of glass lodged into the carpet
but that does not mean I stopped
instead I closed my eyes
and took one more step forward
because I've learned one thing in my way
shouldn't stop me from where I'm going
Thursday, October 27, 2016
Day 363
there is a story of mine
I've been wanting to tell
it's written in my head
but my mind
is beginning to swell
it's a story you've heard before
about a girl who is afraid
she stays in her room and
writes poetry about her
longing to be saved
but this one ends a little differently
it's not quite a fairy tale
she never learns the world
is missing her because
she's too afraid to fail.
I've been wanting to tell
it's written in my head
but my mind
is beginning to swell
it's a story you've heard before
about a girl who is afraid
she stays in her room and
writes poetry about her
longing to be saved
but this one ends a little differently
it's not quite a fairy tale
she never learns the world
is missing her because
she's too afraid to fail.
Saturday, October 22, 2016
Day 362
your words pierce my lungs
like nails scraping down a chalkboard
burying themselves in my veins
and leaving scratches on my skin
I try to run from your voice
but sound travels faster than my feet
and besides,
every time I close my eyes
your voice is all I hear
echoing through my brain
like you are standing on top of a mountain
shouting to me at the bottom of a canyon
and I am surrounded by rock walls that have
been perfectly eroding for centuries,
making way for you to dig my grave.
like nails scraping down a chalkboard
burying themselves in my veins
and leaving scratches on my skin
I try to run from your voice
but sound travels faster than my feet
and besides,
every time I close my eyes
your voice is all I hear
echoing through my brain
like you are standing on top of a mountain
shouting to me at the bottom of a canyon
and I am surrounded by rock walls that have
been perfectly eroding for centuries,
making way for you to dig my grave.
Wednesday, October 19, 2016
Day 361
my mouth burns after you kiss me
and I don't know what that means
because I thought I loved you
the sky turns blue, orange, scarlet
reflecting off the white snow
in which my toes are buried
my body is shivering and cold
but there is fire on my tongue
and in the dead of winter
after you kiss me
I stand in the numb air exhaling the
smoke you breathed into my lungs.
and I don't know what that means
because I thought I loved you
the sky turns blue, orange, scarlet
reflecting off the white snow
in which my toes are buried
my body is shivering and cold
but there is fire on my tongue
and in the dead of winter
after you kiss me
I stand in the numb air exhaling the
smoke you breathed into my lungs.
Sunday, October 16, 2016
Day 360
I am alone in my own home
there are others around me
but they are silent
with mouths stitched closed
their eyes tell me
I am not welcome here
and so I go
saying goodbye to the fireplace,
the photos on the mantel,
the grandfather clock that
stopped telling time long ago
and I say hello
to barren streets
that will soon be stained
with my footprints
there are others around me
but they are silent
with mouths stitched closed
their eyes tell me
I am not welcome here
and so I go
saying goodbye to the fireplace,
the photos on the mantel,
the grandfather clock that
stopped telling time long ago
and I say hello
to barren streets
that will soon be stained
with my footprints
Wednesday, October 12, 2016
Day 359
It stings between my fingers
the weathered spots on my skin
where his hands used to live
and every time I think of him
the pain sharpens
and I can feel it on my hands
my neck
my shoulders
my heart
every place he once touched me
he made sure to leave a scar.
the weathered spots on my skin
where his hands used to live
and every time I think of him
the pain sharpens
and I can feel it on my hands
my neck
my shoulders
my heart
every place he once touched me
he made sure to leave a scar.
Monday, October 10, 2016
Day 358
I saw ground there beneath my feet
but I could not feel it
I was falling one hundred miles
an hour
spinning through darkness
and watching the clouds
above me
swirl into new shapes
and I saw you
leering above me
casting a shadow over me
making my body disappear
so I could not see the next step
in front of my feet
and my fingers grasped for blackness
it was your favorite magic trick
making me disappear
if only you had an audience
to give you the applause
you so desperately craved
but I could not feel it
I was falling one hundred miles
an hour
spinning through darkness
and watching the clouds
above me
swirl into new shapes
and I saw you
leering above me
casting a shadow over me
making my body disappear
so I could not see the next step
in front of my feet
and my fingers grasped for blackness
it was your favorite magic trick
making me disappear
if only you had an audience
to give you the applause
you so desperately craved
Friday, October 7, 2016
Day 357
you have godly eyes
reminiscent of the sun
drown me in your rays
pierce me with your light
fingertips delicate as lilacs
curl around my wrist
feel my blue veins pulse
as you step closer
shoulders like a brick wall
create a shadow on my face
that protects my body
and fade my scars
but I can't make you happy
you hide my face with yours
not for protection
but for lust
you have no power over me
for my body is not a temple
awaiting your strong arms
I am a match and you are my wood
and I am ready to spread my flames.
reminiscent of the sun
drown me in your rays
pierce me with your light
fingertips delicate as lilacs
curl around my wrist
feel my blue veins pulse
as you step closer
shoulders like a brick wall
create a shadow on my face
that protects my body
and fade my scars
but I can't make you happy
you hide my face with yours
not for protection
but for lust
you have no power over me
for my body is not a temple
awaiting your strong arms
I am a match and you are my wood
and I am ready to spread my flames.
Wednesday, October 5, 2016
Day 356
right now the glass is half full
it is sitting on the counter
sweating down its sides
my fingers curl around it
leaving prints on the glass
meeting my parted lips
now the glass is half empty
and my breath fogs up the sides
and I fear I will see
my own reflection
if I look too close
so my hands let go
now the glass is empty
shattered
I am surrounded by
thousands of fragments
and in each one there
is a reflection of me
I watch droplets of water
spill over the counter top
and form a puddle on the ground
I pick up the pieces
that slice the tips of my fingers
I'm sorry for destroying my reflection.
it is sitting on the counter
sweating down its sides
my fingers curl around it
leaving prints on the glass
meeting my parted lips
now the glass is half empty
and my breath fogs up the sides
and I fear I will see
my own reflection
if I look too close
so my hands let go
now the glass is empty
shattered
I am surrounded by
thousands of fragments
and in each one there
is a reflection of me
I watch droplets of water
spill over the counter top
and form a puddle on the ground
I pick up the pieces
that slice the tips of my fingers
I'm sorry for destroying my reflection.
Monday, October 3, 2016
Day 355
I have ruined all my books
with tear drops
blurring the ink
and staining the pages
and curling the corners
so I'm sorry
to the books
for destroying their pages
you did not deserve
to be ruined
because of the words
within them
with tear drops
blurring the ink
and staining the pages
and curling the corners
so I'm sorry
to the books
for destroying their pages
you did not deserve
to be ruined
because of the words
within them
Friday, September 30, 2016
Day 354
and if you only knew
how my bones ache for you
I wonder if you would tell me
your body is fragile too
how my bones ache for you
I wonder if you would tell me
your body is fragile too
Tuesday, September 27, 2016
Thursday, September 22, 2016
Day 352
the rain is falling so fast
that my vision is blurry
but I think
I saw
a glimpse of you
turning the corner
it's funny
you know
how quickly it went from
seeing you everyday
to crossing my fingers
hoping
each time I go outside
I would
perhaps
be lucky enough
to see you
if only for a moment
that my vision is blurry
but I think
I saw
a glimpse of you
turning the corner
it's funny
you know
how quickly it went from
seeing you everyday
to crossing my fingers
hoping
each time I go outside
I would
perhaps
be lucky enough
to see you
if only for a moment
Monday, September 19, 2016
Day 351
I am surrounded by people
and no one to talk to
I am a brown leaf
in a pile of red and orange
unnoticed and untouched
but look closely and you will see
the hints of color that I once was
before I fell to the ground
and lay there
waiting for someone to pick me up
and admire me
just me
and bring me along
clutched softly
in the palm of their hand
and no one to talk to
I am a brown leaf
in a pile of red and orange
unnoticed and untouched
but look closely and you will see
the hints of color that I once was
before I fell to the ground
and lay there
waiting for someone to pick me up
and admire me
just me
and bring me along
clutched softly
in the palm of their hand
Friday, September 16, 2016
Day 350
there will be words in me
even when my blood runs dry
and my eyes permanently close
words never leave
they never stop running
through my soul
trying to jump from my skin
onto a blank sheet of paper
but they do not all
successfully escape
some will remain within my body
forever pounding on my veins
willing me to set them free
even when my blood runs dry
and my eyes permanently close
words never leave
they never stop running
through my soul
trying to jump from my skin
onto a blank sheet of paper
but they do not all
successfully escape
some will remain within my body
forever pounding on my veins
willing me to set them free
Tuesday, September 13, 2016
Day 349
wrap me up
in the sounds of your laugh
that comfort me more
than the warmest blanket
and soothe me greater
than the sheets of my bed
I am fragile
in the strong gates
of your arms
and I fear I will crumble
to pieces in your grasp
but then you laugh
and I am no longer afraid
not of you
because how could
an iron statue
carry the voice of an
angel on its shoulders?
in the sounds of your laugh
that comfort me more
than the warmest blanket
and soothe me greater
than the sheets of my bed
I am fragile
in the strong gates
of your arms
and I fear I will crumble
to pieces in your grasp
but then you laugh
and I am no longer afraid
not of you
because how could
an iron statue
carry the voice of an
angel on its shoulders?
Monday, September 12, 2016
Day 348
I am a word enthusiast
I never tire of making others
feel things by placing
a few words
side-by-side
or creating new worlds
in a few sentences
or bringing visions
to life
I can relive memories
or inspire conversations
with twenty-six letters
and infinite possibilities
I am a word enthusiast
I find stories in things
that cannot speak
for themselves
and I write it for the world
I never tire of making others
feel things by placing
a few words
side-by-side
or creating new worlds
in a few sentences
or bringing visions
to life
I can relive memories
or inspire conversations
with twenty-six letters
and infinite possibilities
I am a word enthusiast
I find stories in things
that cannot speak
for themselves
and I write it for the world
Sunday, September 11, 2016
Day 347
today I noticed I am a lot
like the moon
ignored and unexplored when
I am barely there
just a sliver in the darkness
but when I am at my best
full and vibrant
that is when I am noticed
that is when the wolves howl
to feel alive
like the moon
ignored and unexplored when
I am barely there
just a sliver in the darkness
but when I am at my best
full and vibrant
that is when I am noticed
that is when the wolves howl
to feel alive
Saturday, September 10, 2016
Day 346
yesterday I woke up tired
it hurt to open my eyes
and so I went back to sleep
and when I woke up again
the sun was disappearing
and I lived in the darkness
today I woke up sad
but I pushed myself to
get up and get dressed
and it hurt at first
but then I smiled at the sun
and I walked in its rays
tomorrow I'll wake up happy
and if not tomorrow
then maybe the next day
or maybe it will take me
a week or a month
but I'll get there
it hurt to open my eyes
and so I went back to sleep
and when I woke up again
the sun was disappearing
and I lived in the darkness
today I woke up sad
but I pushed myself to
get up and get dressed
and it hurt at first
but then I smiled at the sun
and I walked in its rays
tomorrow I'll wake up happy
and if not tomorrow
then maybe the next day
or maybe it will take me
a week or a month
but I'll get there
Thursday, September 8, 2016
Day 345
I am not made of glass
I am made of words
take a step back
or when my body crumbles
you will be engulfed
by pieces of my soul
drowning in
syllables and haikus
but soon you will be
surrounded by new faces
and unimaginable places
you can be the main character
in all my broken poetry
and then you will regret
ever trying to
break me
I am made of words
take a step back
or when my body crumbles
you will be engulfed
by pieces of my soul
drowning in
syllables and haikus
but soon you will be
surrounded by new faces
and unimaginable places
you can be the main character
in all my broken poetry
and then you will regret
ever trying to
break me
Wednesday, September 7, 2016
Day 344
the tips of my fingers
were carved
to write sweet words
on blank pages
but I am tired
of all the love poems
my heart insists
on pouring out
I pour water
over my bleeding hands
to wash away
all the empty words
while a blank page
stares me in the eye
beckoning me
to pick up my pen
you think you know
what I am made of
but I am not afraid
to try something new
were carved
to write sweet words
on blank pages
but I am tired
of all the love poems
my heart insists
on pouring out
I pour water
over my bleeding hands
to wash away
all the empty words
while a blank page
stares me in the eye
beckoning me
to pick up my pen
you think you know
what I am made of
but I am not afraid
to try something new
Tuesday, September 6, 2016
Day 343: Heart and Soul
after all this time I thought it was just my heart
that hurt and
could be broken
but today I felt something
deeper
behind my heart
and my lungs
I think maybe
it was my soul
it started as a dull ache
in my ribs
and tightened my lungs
so my breaths became short
and then I swear
I felt you in my body
knocking on my heart
as if to say
I'm never letting
you go
that hurt and
could be broken
but today I felt something
deeper
behind my heart
and my lungs
I think maybe
it was my soul
it started as a dull ache
in my ribs
and tightened my lungs
so my breaths became short
and then I swear
I felt you in my body
knocking on my heart
as if to say
I'm never letting
you go
Sunday, September 4, 2016
Day 342
I know what it does to you
to watch him love another
but keep your head up
don't let anyone see you looking down
or another boy will swoop in
and help you off the ground
to watch him love another
but keep your head up
don't let anyone see you looking down
or another boy will swoop in
and help you off the ground
Saturday, September 3, 2016
Day 341
tonight
you fell asleep on my chest
and I became conscious
of every breath
watching my chest rise and fall
and feeling so loved
that you trusted me
with such an innocent task
of being your resting place
your home for slumber
and I will slow my heart's rhythm
so you can focus on your dreams
and if a nightmare creeps
into your mind
just open your eyes
and feel my heart beating close to yours
you fell asleep on my chest
and I became conscious
of every breath
watching my chest rise and fall
and feeling so loved
that you trusted me
with such an innocent task
of being your resting place
your home for slumber
and I will slow my heart's rhythm
so you can focus on your dreams
and if a nightmare creeps
into your mind
just open your eyes
and feel my heart beating close to yours
Friday, September 2, 2016
Day 340
you saw a perfect heart
to break
and went after it like prey
biting deep into my skin
and watching the blood
seep from my veins
even then I still trusted you
and isn't that a shame
because you watched
me slowly hate myself
though you were the one
to blame
to break
and went after it like prey
biting deep into my skin
and watching the blood
seep from my veins
even then I still trusted you
and isn't that a shame
because you watched
me slowly hate myself
though you were the one
to blame
Wednesday, August 31, 2016
Day 339
a lot of the time
I can occupy myself
enough to push you
out of my head and
write about the sky or the
birds singing their song
but then I find you
in the clouds and hear the birds
chirping your name and
I am right back to
where I began, writing love
poems about you
I can occupy myself
enough to push you
out of my head and
write about the sky or the
birds singing their song
but then I find you
in the clouds and hear the birds
chirping your name and
I am right back to
where I began, writing love
poems about you
Monday, August 29, 2016
Day 338
my mind yearned for something greater
than what I could see
with my own eyes
and everyday I thought
there was something wrong with me
because I was not happy in this life
where an abundance of food grows
yet children starve
where the innocent are killed
by hatred and war
where unarmed men
are shot down on busy roadways
my mind yearned for something greater
than this cycle of ignorance and hate
but as far as my eyes can see
we live in a world
where people are not people
until they fit your perfect mold
than what I could see
with my own eyes
and everyday I thought
there was something wrong with me
because I was not happy in this life
where an abundance of food grows
yet children starve
where the innocent are killed
by hatred and war
where unarmed men
are shot down on busy roadways
my mind yearned for something greater
than this cycle of ignorance and hate
but as far as my eyes can see
we live in a world
where people are not people
until they fit your perfect mold
Sunday, August 28, 2016
Day 337
I remember those nights I awoke from nightmares, my sheets damp from sweat yet my body shivered like I had just finished an ice bath. My teeth would chatter and I'd scan my bedroom for the monsters, finding crazy-shaped heads in the shadows and green eyes peeking out from closed closet doors. I would slowly, carefully step out of bed so as not to wake them and sprint to my parent's bedroom telling my seven-year-old self, don't look back. I would traipse over to my parent's bed and squirm in between them, and it was in the warmth of familiar faces that I could fall back asleep within seconds.
But something changes when you get older. I've learned monsters are not shadows in the dark nor are they nightmares that disappear when the sun rises. You can't just wake up and find yourself back in your own bed anymore. They are within you and they are wherever you look. You may even get a better night's sleep now because for you, seven hours of closed eyes means seven hours of escape.
But don't push the monsters away.
Let them free.
Let them out of your mind, your blood, your bones.
Write.
But something changes when you get older. I've learned monsters are not shadows in the dark nor are they nightmares that disappear when the sun rises. You can't just wake up and find yourself back in your own bed anymore. They are within you and they are wherever you look. You may even get a better night's sleep now because for you, seven hours of closed eyes means seven hours of escape.
But don't push the monsters away.
Let them free.
Let them out of your mind, your blood, your bones.
Write.
Friday, August 26, 2016
Day 336
you only see me with
rose-colored glasses
I am here
though I am not heard
and once you take them off
you will see all of me
every layer from
scarred skin to tired bones
down to the
blood coursing through my veins
and you will know how long
I have ached for your
eyes to pierce my skin
to finally see who I am
and not who you want me to be
and to make me whole again
rose-colored glasses
I am here
though I am not heard
and once you take them off
you will see all of me
every layer from
scarred skin to tired bones
down to the
blood coursing through my veins
and you will know how long
I have ached for your
eyes to pierce my skin
to finally see who I am
and not who you want me to be
and to make me whole again
Thursday, August 25, 2016
Day 335
whoever says silence is not a sound
has never been alone for so long
that they write a song to the
beat of their own heart
or memorize the
rhythm of their breathing
only then
amidst utter silence
can you close your eyes
and hear a symphony
has never been alone for so long
that they write a song to the
beat of their own heart
or memorize the
rhythm of their breathing
only then
amidst utter silence
can you close your eyes
and hear a symphony
Wednesday, August 24, 2016
Day 334
it is a new day
and so there is new light
casting shadows on my wall
the drapes are drawn
yet yellow and white light
pours through floral curtains
I make shapes out of the
shadows camouflaged in the
corners of my bare walls
creating people I have never seen
and places I have only
dreamed of
and so there is new light
casting shadows on my wall
the drapes are drawn
yet yellow and white light
pours through floral curtains
I make shapes out of the
shadows camouflaged in the
corners of my bare walls
creating people I have never seen
and places I have only
dreamed of
Tuesday, August 23, 2016
Day 333
there is so much that I haven't done
all the things I've read about in books
like laughing so hard I start to cry
or making someone's heart stop
when they look at me
or maybe swimming out past the buoys
beyond the breaking point of the waves
where some say the water is so calm
it feels like silk on your fingertips
there is so much that I haven't done
and so much to look forward to
and so here's to another day of
not giving up
all the things I've read about in books
like laughing so hard I start to cry
or making someone's heart stop
when they look at me
or maybe swimming out past the buoys
beyond the breaking point of the waves
where some say the water is so calm
it feels like silk on your fingertips
there is so much that I haven't done
and so much to look forward to
and so here's to another day of
not giving up
Monday, August 22, 2016
Day 332
there is glass beneath
my skin trying to break through
porcelain windows
and I feel no pain
numb to the sharp edges that
used to make me bleed
but there will be a scar
a reminder of a war
I fought with myself
and won
my skin trying to break through
porcelain windows
and I feel no pain
numb to the sharp edges that
used to make me bleed
but there will be a scar
a reminder of a war
I fought with myself
and won
Sunday, August 21, 2016
Saturday, August 20, 2016
Day 330
you were an illusion
from the beginning
reminiscent of a dream
but in reality a nightmare
created from serenity
a field of lilacs
all in my head
and I believed myself
but the real you
soon became clear to me
when I really looked
and your eyes were not
green but a blackhole
that dared to pull me in
if I saw you any longer
from the beginning
reminiscent of a dream
but in reality a nightmare
created from serenity
a field of lilacs
all in my head
and I believed myself
but the real you
soon became clear to me
when I really looked
and your eyes were not
green but a blackhole
that dared to pull me in
if I saw you any longer
Wednesday, August 17, 2016
Day 329
look again
but this time
really see me
see the sadness
hiding shyly
behind my smile
and the mangle of
brown hair I use to cover
tear-stained eyes
look at me
then look again
and really see me
so I don't have to beg
for you to notice
my plea
but this time
really see me
see the sadness
hiding shyly
behind my smile
and the mangle of
brown hair I use to cover
tear-stained eyes
look at me
then look again
and really see me
so I don't have to beg
for you to notice
my plea
Day 328
I have never known a sweeter sound
than your laughter
maybe they are right when they say
laughter is the best medicine
because when I hear that glorious sound
my sadness melts away
like a spoonful of sugar on my tongue
and I am sure that if I heard
your laugh everyday
I could never be unhappy again
than your laughter
maybe they are right when they say
laughter is the best medicine
because when I hear that glorious sound
my sadness melts away
like a spoonful of sugar on my tongue
and I am sure that if I heard
your laugh everyday
I could never be unhappy again
Tuesday, August 16, 2016
Day 327
the moonlight casts a shadow over him
a sliver of ivory that drowns his features
he is surrounded by pitch black
but his eyes shine through any darkness
like lasers they pierce my soul
and I can feel myself growing weaker
he is love and hatred in one body
and while I lust for his gaze
he steals my soul with an open hand
and there is no chance of its return
a sliver of ivory that drowns his features
he is surrounded by pitch black
but his eyes shine through any darkness
like lasers they pierce my soul
and I can feel myself growing weaker
he is love and hatred in one body
and while I lust for his gaze
he steals my soul with an open hand
and there is no chance of its return
Sunday, August 14, 2016
Day 326
I am laying in my bed
staring up at the ceiling
all too often
I look for shapes in the shadows
on the walls
when I used to love finding
shapes in the clouds
I am laying in my bed
immovable in a solace of warmth
and protection
underneath blankets
and cotton sheets
remembering how I used
to crave the warmth of sun's rays
I am laying in my bed
wondering how
daylight now scares me
more than the monsters
that used to come alive in darkness
how each day is now a fire
I must pray for the strength to smother
staring up at the ceiling
all too often
I look for shapes in the shadows
on the walls
when I used to love finding
shapes in the clouds
I am laying in my bed
immovable in a solace of warmth
and protection
underneath blankets
and cotton sheets
remembering how I used
to crave the warmth of sun's rays
I am laying in my bed
wondering how
daylight now scares me
more than the monsters
that used to come alive in darkness
how each day is now a fire
I must pray for the strength to smother
Saturday, August 13, 2016
Day 325
I laugh when I think about you
having no clue that your words
still slice through my ears
and reverberate through my skull
how you sleep soundly at the dead of night
sprawled out under a blanket of silence
while I drift off to the soothing
pain of sobs escaping my lips
And so I laugh while I carve poetry
out of the pieces of my heart
that were left on the ground
and though you were the one who
placed them there I must
thank you for stepping carefully
over them on your way out
so the pieces did not shatter
having no clue that your words
still slice through my ears
and reverberate through my skull
how you sleep soundly at the dead of night
sprawled out under a blanket of silence
while I drift off to the soothing
pain of sobs escaping my lips
And so I laugh while I carve poetry
out of the pieces of my heart
that were left on the ground
and though you were the one who
placed them there I must
thank you for stepping carefully
over them on your way out
so the pieces did not shatter
Day 324
It was her walk that destroyed me
the confidence in her stride
eyes that read every inch of my body
in one glance
It was her eyes that stripped me
of my own self-love
the disgust on her face reaching
through my skin to the bone
It was her smile that melted me
a half-moon upon bitter lips
a pitying shake of the head
that molded me into a beggar
It was her hair that captured me
dark brown rope circling around my body
like a snake attacking its prey
and I was hers for the taking
the confidence in her stride
eyes that read every inch of my body
in one glance
It was her eyes that stripped me
of my own self-love
the disgust on her face reaching
through my skin to the bone
It was her smile that melted me
a half-moon upon bitter lips
a pitying shake of the head
that molded me into a beggar
It was her hair that captured me
dark brown rope circling around my body
like a snake attacking its prey
and I was hers for the taking
Friday, August 12, 2016
Day 323
the broken walk among the healed
with pretend smiles and sunken eyes
camouflaged among one another
you must look closely for the
open wounds and hidden scars
limping walks and confident strides
the dead walk among the living
for the chance to become whole again
with pretend smiles and sunken eyes
camouflaged among one another
you must look closely for the
open wounds and hidden scars
limping walks and confident strides
the dead walk among the living
for the chance to become whole again
Wednesday, August 10, 2016
Day 322
bones fracture with too much pressure
as do hearts without enough love
and I think I heard a whimper escape my lips
when you broke mine
though years have passed
I can taste your perfume just by looking at
the empty side of our bed
but there are things I'm starting to forget
like how many freckles adorned your cheeks
and the way your hair fell when you sleep
these things I thought were permanent
memories in my brain
have fluttered away from my mind
like red leaves on the trees in autumn
until they are swept up by the wind's caress
and float gracefully to the ground
as do hearts without enough love
and I think I heard a whimper escape my lips
when you broke mine
though years have passed
I can taste your perfume just by looking at
the empty side of our bed
but there are things I'm starting to forget
like how many freckles adorned your cheeks
and the way your hair fell when you sleep
these things I thought were permanent
memories in my brain
have fluttered away from my mind
like red leaves on the trees in autumn
until they are swept up by the wind's caress
and float gracefully to the ground
Tuesday, August 9, 2016
Day 321
when did you turn to dust
gently soaring through the air
hiding in the glare of sunlight
and forging a home on every surface
what were you before you were ash
burning on a stone hearth
a remembrance of the unknown
a reminder of the words you've burned
who were you before you were broken
when your dreams still opened your eyes
and you danced through each day on tiptoes
and broke through the darkest shadows
gently soaring through the air
hiding in the glare of sunlight
and forging a home on every surface
what were you before you were ash
burning on a stone hearth
a remembrance of the unknown
a reminder of the words you've burned
who were you before you were broken
when your dreams still opened your eyes
and you danced through each day on tiptoes
and broke through the darkest shadows
Monday, August 8, 2016
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